"Families are Together Forever. My name is Kerri Bodie and I'm an Ex Mormon."

Uploaded by iamanexmormon on Mar 22, 2011




I always thought I would be a member of the LDS church for my whole life. I believed it was the only true church on the face of the earth and I never thought anything would change my mind. My journey out of the church began when I started researching the deeper meaning of the temple. We had a new temple built in our city and I didn't attend as often as the leaders had encouraged us to, so I figured if I understood the deeper meaning of the ceremonies, that I would be more motivated to attend.

As I searched, I was surprised to discover that there really wasn't much information available for me to read. I thought that was strange since this was the pinnacle of our religion. I asked a few LDS friends if they knew where I could find more information and I was introduced to the FARMS and FAIR websites, where of course I found even more questions that I hadn't even considered asking. I was disturbed by the things I was finding but I was sure that if I kept researching, that I would find answers that would confirm that the LDS church was true. This began a three year long deep study of the history and doctrine of the LDS church.

I discovered some horrifically racist comments made by the prophets of the LDS church. The one that struck me as the most ungodlike was by John Taylor, who was President and Prophet of the Church at the time that he published this statement. He said:

"And after the flood we are told that the curse [of dark skin] that had been pronounced upon Cain was continued through Ham's wife, as he had married a wife of that seed. And why did it pass through the flood? Because it was necessary that the devil should have a representation upon the earth as well as God;..." From: "DUTIES OF THE SAINTS-THE ATONEMENT, ETC" AUGUST 28TH, 1881, Journal of Discourses, Vol. 22, page 304. [my emphasis]. This is the church's own publication, this is not anti-Mormon literature.
Don't forget that the Journal of Discourses was like conference talks in the Ensign these days. Talks by the prophet and his counselors were written down and distributed to the members, even sent out to the members in England. Older LDS lesson manuals quote from the Journal of Discourses many times, it cannot be dismissed as not a valid LDS source. The LDS doctrine teaches that the prophet is the mouthpiece of God. Therefore I had to believe God actually told John Taylor to share these disgustingly racist words with the world.
I thought "This means either God is a racist, or the prophets were wrong." I couldn't believe that God was a racist in any way, so this left me with the conclusion that the prophets were certainly NOT speaking for God, they were wrong, a thought that is nearly impossible for an LDS member to fathom.

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Comment by pollypinks on March 27, 2011 at 7:49am
This is huge.  This is why the missionaries don't discuss the Journal of Discourses.  I've always maintained that people could join the church and be happy IF they were given the entire story of the church, and it's practices, and then on that basis made the decision to live that way.  But nobody is told all of this, and die hards deny it to their very dying day.  Why is this so when it's in black and white, and when people go inactive it just makes the church look all the worse?
Comment by vryhppynw on March 27, 2011 at 10:38am

Her heartfelt words regarding how she kept herself distant from her children from fear,... I think that explains so much.  I also felt that from my mother and also got the message that keeping us on the straight and narrow and looking right in front everyone at church was more important than loving us and listening to us. So much fear of loss and fear of judgement...


Comment by Dan on March 28, 2011 at 11:07pm
I enjoyed your video. It is wonderful to view your loved ones as people who are capable of making their oen desicisions and supporting them even if they think differently than yourself. I am fortunite as 1/2 of my imediate family is TBM and they do not give me grief about me now being an athiest. Maybe it is because I just finished 5 years of biblicle studies at university or because they know they can not make me feel guilty. We just do not talk about religion in any deapth. Love your family for who they are for as long as you are with them.


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