"Families are Together Forever. My name is Kerri Bodie and I'm an Ex Mormon."

Uploaded by iamanexmormon on Mar 22, 2011




I always thought I would be a member of the LDS church for my whole life. I believed it was the only true church on the face of the earth and I never thought anything would change my mind. My journey out of the church began when I started researching the deeper meaning of the temple. We had a new temple built in our city and I didn't attend as often as the leaders had encouraged us to, so I figured if I understood the deeper meaning of the ceremonies, that I would be more motivated to attend.

As I searched, I was surprised to discover that there really wasn't much information available for me to read. I thought that was strange since this was the pinnacle of our religion. I asked a few LDS friends if they knew where I could find more information and I was introduced to the FARMS and FAIR websites, where of course I found even more questions that I hadn't even considered asking. I was disturbed by the things I was finding but I was sure that if I kept researching, that I would find answers that would confirm that the LDS church was true. This began a three year long deep study of the history and doctrine of the LDS church.

I discovered some horrifically racist comments made by the prophets of the LDS church. The one that struck me as the most ungodlike was by John Taylor, who was President and Prophet of the Church at the time that he published this statement. He said:

"And after the flood we are told that the curse [of dark skin] that had been pronounced upon Cain was continued through Ham's wife, as he had married a wife of that seed. And why did it pass through the flood? Because it was necessary that the devil should have a representation upon the earth as well as God;..." From: "DUTIES OF THE SAINTS-THE ATONEMENT, ETC" AUGUST 28TH, 1881, Journal of Discourses, Vol. 22, page 304. [my emphasis]. This is the church's own publication, this is not anti-Mormon literature.
Don't forget that the Journal of Discourses was like conference talks in the Ensign these days. Talks by the prophet and his counselors were written down and distributed to the members, even sent out to the members in England. Older LDS lesson manuals quote from the Journal of Discourses many times, it cannot be dismissed as not a valid LDS source. The LDS doctrine teaches that the prophet is the mouthpiece of God. Therefore I had to believe God actually told John Taylor to share these disgustingly racist words with the world.
I thought "This means either God is a racist, or the prophets were wrong." I couldn't believe that God was a racist in any way, so this left me with the conclusion that the prophets were certainly NOT speaking for God, they were wrong, a thought that is nearly impossible for an LDS member to fathom.

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Comment by Phoenix on March 26, 2011 at 2:15pm
Awesome! People need to open their eyes like that!
Comment by Mal on March 26, 2011 at 2:38pm
Yeah I think the LDS church really shoots themselves in the foot when they say "its either all true or none of its true." My response... well I guess none of its true then lol!  My story is similar to this one. I also found many little things put out there by the church that went against my own moral grain.
Comment by Cathy Zeller on March 26, 2011 at 2:42pm
Wow-thank you
Comment by Pascale Dauphinais on March 26, 2011 at 3:24pm
THANK YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH KERRI!: You are making me see ALOT of things straight now as a mom who is well on her way out of mormonism for the second and last time! The first time I left (and resigned) I was not a mom and had just gotten married but now I am a mom and divorced too so and after being put through hell by the bishopric and some members (boy do some gossip and bitch and not mind their own business in there) I am pretty much out the main reason is that single moms are not respected and I don't think God is so cruel that he would prevent my son and I from being together forever simply because I refuse to obey rediculous harmfull rules! ALL THE BEST TO YOU AND THANK YOU AGAIN!  
Comment by livewell on March 26, 2011 at 3:33pm
"You can't increase righteousness by increasing fear and guilt."
thank you Kerri for speaking out.
Comment by lorelaiLG on March 26, 2011 at 10:17pm

Keri, you spoke the truth of my heart. I was a terrified child in the church. The only difference is, I had a drug addict mother who encouraged me to go to the church because "they taught good morals" (something she couldn't do) So I went to church as the only member in my family (I was 11 years old and continued to go until I was 19) well, of course when I went to the church, they essentially taught that because of my Mom's actions, she was going to hell and I would be separated from her for eternity. You used the word "cruel". That is so accurate for what happened to me.  I met so many loving people in the church who championed me in so many ways, which is what I try to take away from my experience but the ultimate truth is, is that I was programmed to be constantly terrified of the second coming and resentful of my mom who "couldn't get it together" to be with me for eternity.


Thank you for the putting the feelings of my heart into WORDS.

Comment by livewell on March 26, 2011 at 10:58pm
I started going to this church when I was 11 too.  It was emotional support felt at church that filled the gap I lacked at home.  Both me and my sister (who joined 2 yrs later) were very much torn as to who we would be sealed to in the hereafter as our earthly parents were not good enough.  It was VERY CRUEL and as I look back as we obeyed only the bishop's counsel, not our OWN parents who sacrificed so much for us.  It's only taken 40 yrs (after I left the church) that my mom feels I'm a "real" daughter again.  Living in the real world is such a priceless adventure to me.
Comment by lorelaiLG on March 26, 2011 at 11:13pm
thanks for sharing vegan, it's nice to know i'm not alone! when these natural disasters happen and people (mostly people in the church and other evangelicals) start "preaching" about the second coming, I still get a little fearful but am trying to replace the fear with knowledge and education about why natural disasters happen. Then my fear turns into anger for these people who are so recklessly naive.
Comment by Miguel on March 27, 2011 at 1:16am

What a beautiful video from a beautiful lady!


I had never thought about those things you said and thanks for having shared them.

Comment by Harold on March 27, 2011 at 1:35am
Keri, thanks for that.  As I watched your video I thoght to myself, now here is a video I would love to share with my four daughters who are still very much into the doctrine.  You are truly the real deal!!  Thanks.


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