Nicholas's Blog (9)

Old Ghosts

More and more frequently I feel lost. When I was a Mormon I was sure that the church was true. I did have my nagging doubts, especially when it came to: forgiveness, the eternal regression of gods, and how exalted beings with physical bodies make spirit children. However, despite my doubts I knew it was true. With this knowledge came the surety of my own damnation. I knew I was going to hell, to suffer for my own sins and then be sent to the lowest degree of glory. I had a firm grasp of the…


Added by Nicholas on December 21, 2012 at 9:32pm — 2 Comments

End Times Tirade

The home teachers came by a few days ago and we (my mother, her parents, and I) had a lovely chat, even though I don’t agree with their beliefs. However one thing that came up struck me as odd, to understand it here’s a little background. My grandmother is what I would call a Mormon survivalist. She is 73 and has told me she won’t die, but that she’ll be “twinkled” and she oftentimes brings up the fact that one day we are all going to head back east to Missoura, yes Missoura, to build up…


Added by Nicholas on December 17, 2011 at 3:00am — 15 Comments

Eternal Regression Ramble

While I was still a Mormon I had an interesting thought cross my mind. Why do we worship Elohim? Elohim was once a man, and had a father-god of his own. Why do we not worship him, because without this God neither Elohim nor we would exist?  Better yet why do we not worship this God’s father, Elohim’s grandfather? Following this vein, why do we not worship the very first God, the ultimate creator and the guy who set all of this up? However this original God is never talked or even thought…


Added by Nicholas on November 9, 2011 at 1:12am — 9 Comments

Totalitarianism and Mormonism

I have noticed a lot of similarities between the goals of totalitarian regimes of the past several decades and The Millennium as described by Mormons. This thought has been bouncing around in my head for a few years now; I was even chided for bringing it up by a devout, yet short tempered Mormon. Here is a list of similarities I have found, please feel free to correct or add.

  • A thousand year empire  
  • Over the entire earth
  • Ruled by one…

Added by Nicholas on October 17, 2011 at 2:15am — 1 Comment

Two Plans and some ass-kissing

So awhile ago I made a post where I examined some ways I used to think as a Mormon and asked the community to respond with their own thoughts. Recently the user Lapsed (thanks for bringing this up btw) made a point about how choosing Satan's plan in the premortal existence sounds better than Jesus'. This made me think about why Elohim chose Jesus over Satan. Satan's plan sounds better. EVERYONE gets to come home and be with Elohim, families can be together forever and all that warm fuzz.…


Added by Nicholas on October 3, 2011 at 1:00am — 2 Comments

A Political Post

Politics pisses me off. I often times hear about how we are "losing our rights". Typically it's the right wing people in the US that are saying this. Many claim that Obama is stripping away our rights. What those rights are or how he's doing it no one can really say. All they know is that he is tearing the Constitution to shreds and if reelected we will live in a totalitarian state with no religion, freedom, guns or property rights. I don't like Obama. Nor do I like the GOP. But I am just…


Added by Nicholas on September 5, 2011 at 3:04am — 5 Comments

Milk before Meat or Bait and Switch

So one of my main problems with the church is the whole policy of “Milk before Meat” or as I like to think of it “Bait and Switch”. For example, missionaries won’t tell investigators that Joseph Smith was killed in a firefight in which he maimed and killed people. Or that Elohim had sex with Mary, or that Black people were, for approximately 7,000 years, considered to be inferior to Caucasians due to the choices of Cain, Ham, and their position during the “war in heaven”. They will tell you…


Added by Nicholas on August 31, 2011 at 12:30pm — 5 Comments

That was then this is Now

It seems to me that a good deal of apologetic for the church essentially boil down to the old phrase "that was then this is now". When I've had talks with Mormons about things like blood atonement or Blacks and the priesthood the answer is usually that we have more knowledge now or that we should trust contemporary prophets rather than older ones. As if we should pretend like the past never happened and that everything is all right now.  But this raises the question, How can an eternal God,… Continue

Added by Nicholas on July 24, 2011 at 3:17pm — 2 Comments

Offended by the Church

Many people who go from activity to inactivity in the church, or even leave entirely are usually though of as being thin skinned. As if the only reason a person would leave the "Church" is because they are easily upset or offended. I have even been told that I probably was offended and that is why I am an Atheist. Well to all the Mormons out there... YES! I left the church because it offended me.

It offends my sense of decency when it claims Black people are descended from the very…


Added by Nicholas on July 13, 2011 at 10:00pm — 5 Comments

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