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Fabric of lies...

Do you remember that children's story "The Emperor's New Clothes", where the swindlers tricked the emperor and everyone in the village into saying they saw the fictional fabric?  Everyone, including the emperor himself, was so afraid of looking like a dumb-ass that they all went along with what everybody else said they saw.  "Oh yes, such beautiful fabric!"  In reality they were ALL idiots, because not a single solitary one of them ever bothered to speak their minds when they…


Added by Countess of Contention on December 7, 2014 at 11:00am — 3 Comments

Losing my religion...

Although religion is not specifically what was intended behind the meaning of this song when REM released it, I have been dwelling on many of the lyrics of late.  As REM says in part "Oh life, ... It's bigger than you and you are not me... I've said too much - I haven't said enough...Consider this the slip that brought me to my knees failed"

Life really is bigger than you and me, it's bigger than all of us, and it is most certainly bigger than the confines the cult of latter…


Added by Countess of Contention on November 28, 2014 at 5:05pm — 5 Comments

The Power Of Prayer

I haven't prayed in years - several years

Long story short, I immersed myself in study of the OT and reached the only obvious and honest conclusion:  that god is insane, hell no I don't respect that jerk, let alone worship his sorry ass.

So, about five months ago my TBM wife suggested I should pray about a job that I was being considered for.  This wasn't just a job - it was my dream job and I had worked part time for these people for a year so I knew what to…


Added by Red Sand on November 28, 2014 at 12:54pm — No Comments

Fucking cult, it takes everything from you

As I'm sitting here, bawling my eyes out, it begins the whole hate and anger spiral over again. The church doesn't deserve my tears with all it's pack of lies, and yet here I sit crying myself dry again. What the hell is wrong with me?

I'm brought back to thinking about the young women's values that were drilled into our heads: Faith, Divine Nature, Individual Worth, Knowledge, Choice & Accountability, Good Works and Integrity.  Brainwashing young girls with each…


Added by Countess of Contention on November 23, 2014 at 2:42pm — 3 Comments

The Missionary Position

Once upon a time I was editor of The Daily Universe at BYU.  It was great fun and I enjoyed writing a humor column.  Since then I have written dozens of teleplays from Star Trek to Miami Vice.  Also managed to write 18 novels, most of which have been published. 

I went to New Zealand (62-64) on a mission and always thought it would be fun to write a novel about the experience.

Here is the cover of the screenplay, attached is the novel. …


Added by jaron on November 14, 2014 at 10:07am — 3 Comments


I give up!

I just realized there is no way possible for me to extricate myself from the Morg at this time. My parents, M&FIL and, more importantly, my wife are all doubling down on activities to strengthen their "testimonkies" and shun all things that might be damaging to their faith.

If I wish to lose everything, I can be true to myself.


I know. Many of you have done just this and survived. I just can't. Let me explain.

If you have read my…


Added by Bruce Holt on November 6, 2014 at 9:40am — 12 Comments

The Third Wall

Tonight on LAM chat someone spoke of getting together in the real world. It was the sort of thing friends do for each other, but it made me think about the third wall. Upon hearing the exchange, the idea seemed as foreign to me as watching the Mary Tyler Moore show and turning off the television and calling and inviting Mary to drop by.  That is to say that I interact with LAM in the way one might view a television show, except that it is…


Added by Bar Kokhba on November 5, 2014 at 2:00am — 3 Comments

I <3 U Ma Fuckas

Dis un goes out to all mma homies on LAM. Lav u ma fuckas to the day I die. If I die soon, it will be okay cuz I've spent my life chatting wit y'all and I don't regret it. Ain't a better place to find crazy mah fuckas than LAM. Whenever I feel outta place in dis crazy mormon hood down in southern idaho, I remember you niggers. Special thx to Micah, Marshall, europebabe, austin, SM, QL, HB, and Kitkat. Oh! and Thomas too, we had some funny conversations back when.

I love you guys, …


Added by Saint Noodle on October 29, 2014 at 12:09am — 3 Comments


Honestly, when I married my dear husband many years ago, I thought I got such a bonus with his family.

I'm not LDS. But the majority of my in-law family were strongly-practicing Mormons, in spite of the fact that the man I fell deeply in love with (their son/brother/cousin/uncle) was non-practicing and non-believing. He had wisdom!

His LDS family, I liked a lot and thought I hit the jackpot. His loving, gracious and kind mom was a dream come true for me, and I felt blessed and…


Added by chipsandhotsauce on October 28, 2014 at 9:11pm — 10 Comments

The 13 Articles of Falsehood

1. "We believe that Joseph Smith was a prophet and revelator who talked to God." Are you kidding me? In 1820 Joseph picks up a rock which he then convinces people he can use to find buried treasure. He puts the rock in a hat and then buries his head in the hat to see visions. What a wonder that he found no gold, but later stumbled onto a set of golden plates.

2. "We believe that Joseph Smith was an upright citizen before the law, and before God, and all." Well that is a…


Added by The Devil on October 26, 2014 at 12:00pm — No Comments

Last Email Exchange with Sister

My sister started emailing me about a week before general conference, and things seemed to be going in a positive direction. However, when we started talking about my current beliefs and why I left home, things inevitably and predictably took a turn for the worse. Expecting this doesn't make it hurt any less though. 

She asked about my side of the story, specifically why I left. So I told her in detail. Not so much about why I stopped believing, but rather why I left home. I told her…


Added by Rng on October 25, 2014 at 10:55pm — 7 Comments

Hurts Doughnut

"Have you ever had a hurts doughnut?" < "No." > Pow! (punches sucker in the arm). "Hurts don't it?"

Has this ever happened to you? It's a slightly painful prank that most people only fall for once. It's funny right...for the person who does the hitting anyway. Some victims laugh the pain off, some think "lesson learned," but others hit back.

The LDS church is the worlds biggest Hurts Doughnut, but the damage done is more painful…


Added by The Devil on October 13, 2014 at 12:29am — 3 Comments

Guilt like White Elephants

A recent forum topic on produced for me some of the laugh-out-loud funniest accounts I’ve ever read of Missionary indiscretion and rule-breaking. I started to write a response of my own but the muse was with me and it began to take on a life. I came to realize there might be a story here worth fleshing out. I hope I’m not wrong.

I served in San Diego in the late 80's and my mission was lousy with stories of elders surfing, sexing up the locals and pulling odometer… Continue

Added by Marker on October 9, 2014 at 12:50am — 1 Comment

The Appearance of Evil

Hello everyone! I am the Devil. Now I know my appearance raises emotion and judgment, but I didn't always look like this. All I did was propose a plan to save everybody and boy did I take a beating for that. Clearly the other guy had a better plan which allowed room for fire and brimstone (who doesn't love that)?

Long story short, contrary to popular belief, I was sent down to Earth to a proper non - judgmental Mormon family. I never quite fit the mold, but I did appreciate a few… Continue

Added by The Devil on September 27, 2014 at 7:00pm — 10 Comments

A Trajectory of Mormon Transition by Bill Dobbs

A Trajectory of Mormon Transition, By Bill Dobbs

This well thought out Article is originally posted on

Please read the full version at…


Added by Victoria on September 10, 2014 at 11:00pm — No Comments

"Are we there yet?"

This Thursday, we are told, the big truck containing our belongings should arrive between 9 and 11 am MDT. We'll see! I've heard this tale before!

After several miscues, it seems our belongings will join us in our new home in Greeley, CO! Yay!

We love the house. It's great being near the in-laws. The weather suits us perfectly (so far). Good, eh?

Downside: Wife, in-laws and my parents have had so much in their recent lives that has sent them reeling that I must hang on…


Added by Bruce Holt on August 19, 2014 at 4:15pm — 4 Comments

Utah's Drug Problem

I watched an episode of a National Geographic show called Drugs Inc. that really made me think about this issue and what the repercussions for Utah could be.

Has anyone else been worried about this or had experience with it?

Thanks Guys!


Added by JayCee on July 21, 2014 at 1:46am — 1 Comment

Average Mormon vs Average Non-Mormon View of Facts

It’s no surprise that when it come to the average non-Mormon and the average Mormon, we don’t always see eye to eye. Let’s take a look at just a couple of the most key aspects of the Mormon religion and see where the two sides are generally falling on the matter.

Joseph Smith Sleeping with 14 year Old Girls



Added by Sparrowlark on July 18, 2014 at 3:00pm — No Comments

Buying Our Way Into Heaven

Growing up in the Mormon faith I can recall many an occasion when the catholic was used as as the prime example of corruption and therefore proof of its falsehood. I remember a teacher telling our Sunday School class once that catholic church would tell its members that they if they payed a certain amount of money that the church had the ability to purchase their dead loved ones out of hell. Many of these followers were peasants and in low standing in the world and could…


Added by Sparrowlark on July 17, 2014 at 11:39pm — 2 Comments

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