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The Mormon church has destroyed my past, but I won't let it ruin my future!

Growing up in a Mormon family had it's memories of fun times and as I grew older those memories became hurts.  As a child you just kind of go with the flow and attend church and activities because that's, well, just what the whole family did.  It's all we knew.  Rehearsed prayers, rehearsed testimonies, no tv on Sunday, no coffee, no playing with non member friends, etc.  As a young women in the church they teach you, or should I say brainwash you, on the next step in your lives.  Go to…


Added by Sandy on March 15, 2015 at 8:29am — No Comments

Da Hell's wrong with me?

The Elders showed up at my door tonight with their curious timing and all the social pomp of an unexpected fart on a first date. The first Elder was just timid enough to speak in hushed tones while his dazzling companion was the conversational equivalent of eating a fistful of sand. I felt like the plate spinner on a 70's variety show just trying to kill a few minutes of light conversation.

Their timing was curious because I had exactly one hour with which to select from a houseful… Continue

Added by Marker on February 27, 2015 at 12:58am — No Comments

Did the LDS church want you to drown? but those funky underwear were supposed to save you right?

Read an article lately that made me realize I was rowing my own boat while the LDS church was drilling holes in my boat of life!!!  

Mormonism affects people in ways that are psychologically healthy and unhealthy. The purpose of this blog post is to provide you with…

Added by Sandy on February 7, 2015 at 1:30pm — 2 Comments

Others see our choice in leaving the church as utter destruction.....

Making the choice to leave the Mormon church has made me realize that life has more meaning. Choices and changes don't seem that hard or that bad as once viewed in my own head when I was a member of the LDS church.   “For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. The shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes. To someone who doesn't understand growth, it would look like complete destruction.”   Those still in the Mormon church seem to know all…


Added by Sandy on February 3, 2015 at 11:11am — 3 Comments

Dealing with friends or family that are still LDS members

"It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell."

Added by Sandy on January 26, 2015 at 3:19am — 2 Comments

The Beauty Behind the Con

I'm somewhat struck this week by how widely embraced are the magical concepts woven into the fabric of Mormonism.  


My siblings, in an effort to shepherd me back into the one true fold, (bless their little hearts) thought, if they could just expose me again to this magic perhaps I might just slide back under its spell.…


Added by Marker on January 16, 2015 at 2:19pm — 2 Comments

There's a surprise in my pants!

I'm wearing fresh non-magic undies today y'all!

It was less difficult than I thought to resist the urge to pencil-in my favorite Masonic symbols and on first pass, what they lack in supernatural properties they make up by not being ratty threadbare reminders of my lack of motivation to replace them.

Sorry, if you happen to be reading this and find it resembles a non-event, which you would be right to normally classify one's changing of underwear. However please…


Added by Marker on January 8, 2015 at 1:30am — 3 Comments


I remember this talk and it rang so true. It made sense that the church is a temporary thing. The liars and cheats called apostles and prophets made Elder Poelman redo the talk to an empty conference center and then they edited out and replaced brainwashing ideas from their Big Brother message into the Ensign and archives.  For me I am sure that my brain latched onto the original…


Added by KindSmile on December 21, 2014 at 1:51pm — 1 Comment

1 - 2 - 3 let's go shopping...


from thomas monson and ldsInc.

Added by KindSmile on December 17, 2014 at 11:23pm — No Comments

Sex at Swordpoint

Somewhere in the vast heavens above (presumably, near planet Kolob) an angel is sporting fresh bus-tire treads all across his signature "loose robe of most exquisite whiteness" and exposed bosom. (see JSH!)

The only true and living church, in a series of essays, is attempting to reconstruct an uncomfortable past. This exercise has apparently less to do with honest disclosure than it does with redistributing blame.

Case in point;

Brigham and his successors have… Continue

Added by Marker on December 7, 2014 at 11:57pm — 19 Comments

Fabric of lies...

Do you remember that children's story "The Emperor's New Clothes", where the swindlers tricked the emperor and everyone in the village into saying they saw the fictional fabric?  Everyone, including the emperor himself, was so afraid of looking like a dumb-ass that they all went along with what everybody else said they saw.  "Oh yes, such beautiful fabric!"  In reality they were ALL idiots, because not a single solitary one of them ever bothered to speak their minds when they…


Added by Countess of Contention on December 7, 2014 at 11:00am — 3 Comments

Losing my religion...

Although religion is not specifically what was intended behind the meaning of this song when REM released it, I have been dwelling on many of the lyrics of late.  As REM says in part "Oh life, ... It's bigger than you and you are not me... I've said too much - I haven't said enough...Consider this the slip that brought me to my knees failed"

Life really is bigger than you and me, it's bigger than all of us, and it is most certainly bigger than the confines the cult of latter…


Added by Countess of Contention on November 28, 2014 at 5:05pm — 5 Comments

The Power Of Prayer

I haven't prayed in years - several years

Long story short, I immersed myself in study of the OT and reached the only obvious and honest conclusion:  that god is insane, hell no I don't respect that jerk, let alone worship his sorry ass.

So, about five months ago my TBM wife suggested I should pray about a job that I was being considered for.  This wasn't just a job - it was my dream job and I had worked part time for these people for a year so I knew what to…


Added by Red Sand on November 28, 2014 at 12:54pm — No Comments

Fucking cult, it takes everything from you

As I'm sitting here, bawling my eyes out, it begins the whole hate and anger spiral over again. The church doesn't deserve my tears with all it's pack of lies, and yet here I sit crying myself dry again. What the hell is wrong with me?

I'm brought back to thinking about the young women's values that were drilled into our heads: Faith, Divine Nature, Individual Worth, Knowledge, Choice & Accountability, Good Works and Integrity.  Brainwashing young girls with each…


Added by Countess of Contention on November 23, 2014 at 2:42pm — 3 Comments

The Missionary Position

Once upon a time I was editor of The Daily Universe at BYU.  It was great fun and I enjoyed writing a humor column.  Since then I have written dozens of teleplays from Star Trek to Miami Vice.  Also managed to write 18 novels, most of which have been published. 

I went to New Zealand (62-64) on a mission and always thought it would be fun to write a novel about the experience.

Here is the cover of the screenplay, attached is the novel. …


Added by jaron on November 14, 2014 at 10:07am — 3 Comments


I give up!

I just realized there is no way possible for me to extricate myself from the Morg at this time. My parents, M&FIL and, more importantly, my wife are all doubling down on activities to strengthen their "testimonkies" and shun all things that might be damaging to their faith.

If I wish to lose everything, I can be true to myself.


I know. Many of you have done just this and survived. I just can't. Let me explain.

If you have read my…


Added by Elohim's Dad on November 6, 2014 at 9:40am — 14 Comments

The Third Wall

Tonight on LAM chat someone spoke of getting together in the real world. It was the sort of thing friends do for each other, but it made me think about the third wall. Upon hearing the exchange, the idea seemed as foreign to me as watching the Mary Tyler Moore show and turning off the television and calling and inviting Mary to drop by.  That is to say that I interact with LAM in the way one might view a television show, except that it is…


Added by Bar Kokhba on November 5, 2014 at 2:00am — 4 Comments

I <3 U Ma Fuckas

Dis un goes out to all mma homies on LAM. Lav u ma fuckas to the day I die. If I die soon, it will be okay cuz I've spent my life chatting wit y'all and I don't regret it. Ain't a better place to find crazy mah fuckas than LAM. Whenever I feel outta place in dis crazy mormon hood down in southern idaho, I remember you niggers. Special thx to Micah, Marshall, europebabe, austin, SM, QL, HB, and Kitkat. Oh! and Thomas too, we had some funny conversations back when.

I love you guys, …


Added by Saint Noodle on October 29, 2014 at 12:09am — 3 Comments


Honestly, when I married my dear husband many years ago, I thought I got such a bonus with his family.

I'm not LDS. But the majority of my in-law family were strongly-practicing Mormons, in spite of the fact that the man I fell deeply in love with (their son/brother/cousin/uncle) was non-practicing and non-believing. He had wisdom!

His LDS family, I liked a lot and thought I hit the jackpot. His loving, gracious and kind mom was a dream come true for me, and I felt blessed and…


Added by chipsandhotsauce on October 28, 2014 at 9:11pm — 7 Comments

The 13 Articles of Falsehood

1. "We believe that Joseph Smith was a prophet and revelator who talked to God." Are you kidding me? In 1820 Joseph picks up a rock which he then convinces people he can use to find buried treasure. He puts the rock in a hat and then buries his head in the hat to see visions. What a wonder that he found no gold, but later stumbled onto a set of golden plates.

2. "We believe that Joseph Smith was an upright citizen before the law, and before God, and all." Well that is a…


Added by The Devil on October 26, 2014 at 12:00pm — No Comments

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