I'm dealing with the mommy problem.  I love my mom but...

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I wrote my resignation letter on the 20th of May 2013. I just received my "invitation" to return in the mail today along with a letter from the Bishop. It is my surprise that the Bishop isn't talking of my condemnation into outer darkness but if anyone has hurt me in any way to please let him know. He also said even if I do chose to leave the church for good, he hopes I would still remain friends with him and his family. I assume during the course of…

The missionaries came to my house on Saturday unexpectedly as usual. I talked to them for a while but they could tell something was on my mind. Honestly, I think the church has been on to me for a while now, that I was going to go back to the Catholic Church. I almost think they seriously have had someone following me... ok, I'm exaggerating but seriously, it felt like they were about to come up to me…

Walking on egg shells -

painfully and quietly, afraid

to make a noise that will

bring unwanted

attention to

us.

Balancing on the sharp,

cracked edges

with crooked smiles on our faces -

we are ducking away from the double,

dark suited shadows

who sometimes haunt our homes

and always haunt our nightmares.

Everything sits

just below the surface, boiling -

words like weapons waiting for…

After a short time of having my very mormon (TBM) little sister visiting me all the way from Mexico, I am feeling a connection back with my family as I hadn't felt in more than 10 years since I began to question and move away from the mormon lifestyle. It's been 13 years since my first actual conscious doubt about the existence of "god" and the purpose of one's life. Since then, after recovering from a close-to-death experience, a series of conscious and unconscious questions arose in my…

Open your mouth wide, and prepare

to swallow one more bitter spoonful

of emotions

meant to be suppressed,

not felt -

just tucked away, unheard.

Close your eyes tight,

cinch the corners and keep out the light

because the illumination of reality

is blinding.

Lying to yourself is akin to being optimistic,

so surely walking around with eyes closed

will be the key to happiness.

Assume that when you speak,

you are wrong,

and…

I am sharing a blog post on my open salon blog about fainting to be released from Mormonism.

I want to run my fingers up and down your spine,

and turn your pages slowly - thumbing through,

unfolding your layers.

I will gently linger over bent corners, branded

pages - 

and I'll stop to ponder the question of

who was here before me?

and 

why didn't they treat you more carefully?

Someone is at the door. Again.



-But I wasn't expecting any visitors this early afternoon. And my friends rarely visit me during the day. Actually it is about time for my appointment and I'm not even close to being ready.



It was hot and the sun fell vertically…

So, I know a lot on here are atheists and some have choosen to be other faiths besides Christian but like I've told my background story, I returned to the Catholic Church RUNNING because it is where I am happy and what I truly believe.  So, please no rude comments. I'm in the process of trying to resign but not completely sure how to go about it because I have some dear friends who are LDS and…

Has anyone ever faked moving or relocating to get the church off their back after resigning or becoming "inactive"?

Agency. Free Will. Choice.  All important words according to the Plan of Salvation.  Can free agency be assumed in all situations and decisions, or are there prerequisites that make it conditional?  If any choice is reduced to a single alternative, has free will been diminished?  These are important questions while considering the methods employed by the LDS church, both in it's missionary program, and gospel curriculum.  What most Mormons don't realize is that…

Pressure cookers - that's all we were. Like bombs waiting to explode all over innocent people, we sat silent in backpacks until we couldn't take it any longer. 

How many people did we hurt?

Thinking about pressure - I think of the days before my patriarchal blessing. I was 14 at the time, and I felt unprepared. Time and again, people had said wait until you're ready. I didn't feel ready. I felt uneasy. But my father kept saying again and again who knows how much…

Ever wonder what it is like being a single young molly woman who after three days had her whole life disappear.

I have just begun my Adventures into the secular world. And I’m absolutely clueless.  Drinking, Sex, and skirts above the knee:P Check out my blog to hear my story.  It keeps me sane and it’s anonymous…

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/joseph-peterson/mormons-immigration-vs-equality_b_3182356.html?utm_hp_ref=gay-marriage

Do you think that Joseph Smith was an outright liar, that he never had any visions of any sort or do you think there is a possibility he truly believed what he was doing was true but was deceived by Satan? Do you think maybe God did have a mission for him to do but he misinterpreted what he was called to do? Such as not making a whole new church but perhaps helping heal the shattered pieces…

I said enough is enough when I was sitting in gospel principles almost on the brink of tears, knowing mass would be going on in that very moment at my "home parish" and I would be missing the Eucharist. I tried to sneak away that day and go off to mass but was trapped in the hallway by my very sweet home teacher who asked me if I was leaving, and not going to attend Sunday School for that day.…

So a little bit of my background story, I dreamt about the missionary who was going to baptize me before I came into the Church, we ended up crossing paths, becoming close friends especially after the baptism and it especially was obvious to me that regardless of the whole "lock your heart while on your mission" theory he did/does have feelings for me. He even hugged me when he got transferred, which from what I hear is taboo even when innocent but…

Missing having the closeness of the relationships I felt I had in Relief Society evaporate upon leaving the church and being at a new Protestant church and not being trusted because of having been a Mormon and in their opinion having been really stupid for being one.

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