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Journey Shifts

Started this discussion. Last reply by Sarah.J Dec 13, 2014. 10 Replies

For me, leaving the church was just another shift in my spiritual path.  On one level, it was not hard because it was so clear to me that stepping away from Mormonism was my next move on my own…Continue

Joseph: What were his True Colors?

Started this discussion. Last reply by Blenderpunch Feb 8, 2014. 6 Replies

I'm curious, among we flock-leavers, how many believe this modern shepherd-boy, Joseph Smith,  truly believed himself to be a prophet of  God and how many think he was a wolf in sheep's clothing ?  …Continue

Now What?

Started this discussion. Last reply by Don May 28, 2014. 38 Replies

I'm curious about what other Formons (that was supposed to be former Mormons, but I like the the new title!)now believe...about anything, Truth, God, Life, Love, Jesus, marriage, funeral potatoes,…Continue

 

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So. Utah exmormons

Southern Utah exmormormons. meet-ups and support for life after mormonism while still living among its culture. See More
Aug 31, 2016
Rei of Light commented on Rei of Light's blog post OK, So What, Then, Is The Truth?!!
"Yeah--listen to some CD's by Ken Wapnick. He's my favorite teacher on the Course, and in fact, was especially designated to teach the ideas. Email me if you have any more questions--love to make Course contacts. zhailaarei@gmail.com (Sorry…"
Aug 26, 2016
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Need a 'Getaway?"

When I finally got the courage to step out of Mormonism and find a new path, I kept wishing there was someplace I could go to just get away, and maybe talk to like-minded people. Now I'd like to provide that for others struggling down the transitioning path. We moved from Southern Utah to a remote but easily accessible spot in Northern Idaho. If you need a few days of solitude and listening ears, email me at zhailaarei@gmail.com. Especially if you are interested in ACIM--a path that really drew…See More
Aug 26, 2016
Rei of Light replied to Cagouillard's discussion Happy/sad Where and what have ya'll done.
"When I left, I started doing a lot of reading and attending different seminars. The information that resonated with me most came from A Course In Miracles and seminars with Ken Wapnick, mostly because the teachings frankly admitted they were just…"
Sep 4, 2015
Rei of Light replied to Vinny's discussion The LDS Church has taken my father
"Hey Vinny-Sounds like you are in some emotional pain, which is always very difficult. But the way I see it, the church did not take your father, because he is the one who makes his choices. It may seem sad or even wasteful or unfair that he is…"
Sep 3, 2015
Rei of Light replied to RCDC's discussion This passage from George Orwell's book is spot on.
"I think we are like infants--we 'swallow everything' until we realize we have a choice, begin thinking for ourselves. It takes longer for some than others. Yes, this really is spot on. Thanks for sharing this."
Apr 8, 2015
Rei of Light left a comment for Robbie
"Hi--Thanks for your thoughts. I am also a 61-year-olds woman who left the church. You said you were searching for a spiritual direction. I've found something that resonated with me, and would be interested in sharing ideas with you. …"
Mar 27, 2015
Sarah.J replied to Rei of Light's discussion Journey Shifts
"I initially left in much the same way. At the time I called it a spiritual witness that the church simply wasn't true. I felt as though I had moved beyond the limits of theology into what is absolutely a personal journey. I didn't formally…"
Dec 13, 2014
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Dec 12, 2014
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Dec 12, 2014
cynthia replied to Rei of Light's discussion Journey Shifts
"Hm. I'm curious in what way u feel that u were not allowed to be spiritual. Not because I disagree wth you, but because I have wondered about the measure of spirit filled worship in the LDS church. And the lack of full messages anf teachings of…"
Dec 12, 2014
KindSmile left a comment for Rei of Light
"Hello Rei of Light! I noticed that you have noted as favorite books including A Course In Miracles. The basics from that work of literary was helpful to me as well. Probably for me a blend of IAND's or near death experience stories along with…"
Nov 6, 2014
Amandawashere replied to Rei of Light's discussion Journey Shifts
"I love your story of spiritual awakening!  I feel like I can relate.  Among other things that pulled me out of the church was the feeling that the one place  (church) where I was supposed to be "spiritual" was the one place…"
Nov 5, 2014
Don replied to Rei of Light's discussion Now What?
"The years after following the dancing group of Mormons down the road I felt sad inside.  I saw that an organisation can be vile, nasty and mean.  It hurt me and I was pissed off as well.  They had made a public damned fool of me and…"
May 28, 2014
Mike1 replied to Rei of Light's discussion Now What?
"For thirteen years after leaving the church I was agnostic. I started to since my mortality after experiencing cancer and  a couple of TIAs. Holy cow I will really die some day. Am I ready? I started to consider my place in the world and life…"
May 28, 2014
Rei of Light replied to MikeUtah's discussion Greetings and Introductions Thread
"This is Rei (of Light).  I was born and raised Mormon in Southern Utah, stayed with it 55 years even though I was constantly questioning.  I felt I was being lead by a spirit within in a different direction, even to the point of feeling I…"
Apr 23, 2014

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Relationship Status (single, partner, etc):
married
My Story:
I left the church five years ago after over fifty years of nagging doubts as a member. Never felt better!
Interests and Hobbies:
Music and writing
Favorite Books:
A Course in Miracles
Teachings of the Masters of the Far East
Favorite activity after mormonism?
Living off-grid-self-sufficient life with new husband
If you went on an LDS mission, where and when did you go?
Hill Cumorah Pageant Mission

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Need a 'Getaway?"

Posted on August 26, 2016 at 4:23pm 0 Comments

When I finally got the courage to step out of Mormonism and find a new path, I kept wishing there was someplace I could go to just get away, and maybe talk to like-minded people. Now I'd like to provide that for others struggling down the transitioning path. We moved from Southern Utah to a remote but easily accessible spot in Northern Idaho. If you need a few days of solitude and listening ears, email me at zhailaarei@gmail.com. Especially if you are interested in ACIM--a path that really…

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OK, So What, Then, Is The Truth?!!

Posted on December 3, 2013 at 6:49pm 2 Comments

Here is the question former Mormons must ask themselves:  OK now that I realize all the basics of God and Religion I was taught are false, what the hell is the truth?  It's like, you're traveling to Boston, take a wrong turn somewhere, and find yourself in some strange town in Ohio that you know for certain isn't Boston. Do you just say, woops, and keep driving, hoping you eventually get where you want to be?  No, you get out a road map and figure out where you turned wrong. If only it were…

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At 7:31am on November 6, 2014, KindSmile said…

Hello Rei of Light! I noticed that you have noted as favorite books including A Course In Miracles. The basics from that work of literary was helpful to me as well. Probably for me a blend of IAND's or near death experience stories along with the Love taught in A Course In Miracles helped me find a better way than the lds hoax. If only I could get my money back from the fraudulent corporation called a church.

At 10:02am on January 9, 2014, Carmen Blue said…

As stated in my initial statement, my questioning began in high school (end of the 1950's) when I was introduced to critical thinking, philosophy, great literature.  Then, yes, I was devastated; I did not think I would live through the falling away of all I had been conditioned to believe and then, like you, I thought there must be some absolute truth and I just had to find it.  Over 50 years later, I have only to remove my name from church records.  The desire to replace the sense of exile and the loss of one's spiritual community and creed sometimes creeps in and requires me to breathe compassion to what remains of the child I was who felt so lost . . . but mostly, I have opened up to the "what is" of the here, the now, and the eternal in that.  The dropping away of illusion and delusion is a life process for me, a divine adventure.  I no longer experience "god" as out there and not inside of me, but in all and everything everywhere.  One could say the same of "satan" ~ all and everywhere. These are words, not realities. There is only one of us in my world and it is infinite and a mystery and will always be.  That is the beauty, "Ah, sweet mystery of life" the old song sings itself.

I would say that reading, among so many things, the gnostic Jesus scriptures from Nag Hammadi can open up Jesus (not the body on the cross/scrap the cross, sin, suffering, and all that divides our ways of seeing such as that we need to be redeemed . . . that is all the church(es) way of keeping you one down and them one up and all of us divided) in a profound way, the Jesus who taught us how to live by living.  And, once one begins to feel embodied, truly experiencing the gift of embodiment and its alchemy, even the Jesus drops away as that being is you, is all.  There is life after "the Matrix" or perhaps life begins when one chooses to leave it and not look back (for one can be turned to stone and paralyzed).  There is "the peace that passeth all understanding".  What helped me most in seeing "the Matrix" (40 years before the movie) was a chapter in a Russian novel, "The Legend of the Grand Inquisitor".  I could never be the same after the experience of that psychological understanding, but the immediate impact was deep suffering as I began to understand the Inquisition inside of me and the function of the churches and how they were set up to answer the needs of those who could not handle the responsibilities of freedom.  I wish you all the best on your journey and thank you for your inquiry.  I hope you find it of value.

 
 
 

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