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Journey Shifts

Started this discussion. Last reply by Sarah.J Dec 13, 2014. 10 Replies

For me, leaving the church was just another shift in my spiritual path.  On one level, it was not hard because it was so clear to me that stepping away from Mormonism was my next move on my own…Continue

Joseph: What were his True Colors?

Started this discussion. Last reply by Blenderpunch Feb 8, 2014. 6 Replies

I'm curious, among we flock-leavers, how many believe this modern shepherd-boy, Joseph Smith,  truly believed himself to be a prophet of  God and how many think he was a wolf in sheep's clothing ?  …Continue

Now What?

Started this discussion. Last reply by Don May 28, 2014. 38 Replies

I'm curious about what other Formons (that was supposed to be former Mormons, but I like the the new title!)now believe...about anything, Truth, God, Life, Love, Jesus, marriage, funeral potatoes,…Continue


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My Story:
I left the church five years ago after over fifty years of nagging doubts as a member. Never felt better!
Interests and Hobbies:
Music and writing
Favorite Books:
A Course in Miracles
Teachings of the Masters of the Far East
Favorite activity after mormonism?
Living off-grid-self-sufficient life with new husband
If you went on an LDS mission, where and when did you go?
Hill Cumorah Pageant Mission

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Need a 'Getaway?"

Posted on August 26, 2016 at 4:23pm 0 Comments

When I finally got the courage to step out of Mormonism and find a new path, I kept wishing there was someplace I could go to just get away, and maybe talk to like-minded people. Now I'd like to provide that for others struggling down the transitioning path. We moved from Southern Utah to a remote but easily accessible spot in Northern Idaho. If you need a few days of solitude and listening ears, email me at Especially if you are interested in ACIM--a path that really…


OK, So What, Then, Is The Truth?!!

Posted on December 3, 2013 at 6:49pm 2 Comments

Here is the question former Mormons must ask themselves:  OK now that I realize all the basics of God and Religion I was taught are false, what the hell is the truth?  It's like, you're traveling to Boston, take a wrong turn somewhere, and find yourself in some strange town in Ohio that you know for certain isn't Boston. Do you just say, woops, and keep driving, hoping you eventually get where you want to be?  No, you get out a road map and figure out where you turned wrong. If only it were…


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At 7:31am on November 6, 2014, KindSmile said…

Hello Rei of Light! I noticed that you have noted as favorite books including A Course In Miracles. The basics from that work of literary was helpful to me as well. Probably for me a blend of IAND's or near death experience stories along with the Love taught in A Course In Miracles helped me find a better way than the lds hoax. If only I could get my money back from the fraudulent corporation called a church.

At 10:02am on January 9, 2014, Carmen Blue said…

As stated in my initial statement, my questioning began in high school (end of the 1950's) when I was introduced to critical thinking, philosophy, great literature.  Then, yes, I was devastated; I did not think I would live through the falling away of all I had been conditioned to believe and then, like you, I thought there must be some absolute truth and I just had to find it.  Over 50 years later, I have only to remove my name from church records.  The desire to replace the sense of exile and the loss of one's spiritual community and creed sometimes creeps in and requires me to breathe compassion to what remains of the child I was who felt so lost . . . but mostly, I have opened up to the "what is" of the here, the now, and the eternal in that.  The dropping away of illusion and delusion is a life process for me, a divine adventure.  I no longer experience "god" as out there and not inside of me, but in all and everything everywhere.  One could say the same of "satan" ~ all and everywhere. These are words, not realities. There is only one of us in my world and it is infinite and a mystery and will always be.  That is the beauty, "Ah, sweet mystery of life" the old song sings itself.

I would say that reading, among so many things, the gnostic Jesus scriptures from Nag Hammadi can open up Jesus (not the body on the cross/scrap the cross, sin, suffering, and all that divides our ways of seeing such as that we need to be redeemed . . . that is all the church(es) way of keeping you one down and them one up and all of us divided) in a profound way, the Jesus who taught us how to live by living.  And, once one begins to feel embodied, truly experiencing the gift of embodiment and its alchemy, even the Jesus drops away as that being is you, is all.  There is life after "the Matrix" or perhaps life begins when one chooses to leave it and not look back (for one can be turned to stone and paralyzed).  There is "the peace that passeth all understanding".  What helped me most in seeing "the Matrix" (40 years before the movie) was a chapter in a Russian novel, "The Legend of the Grand Inquisitor".  I could never be the same after the experience of that psychological understanding, but the immediate impact was deep suffering as I began to understand the Inquisition inside of me and the function of the churches and how they were set up to answer the needs of those who could not handle the responsibilities of freedom.  I wish you all the best on your journey and thank you for your inquiry.  I hope you find it of value.


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