For me, it is to go from the cradle to the grave and make it work for me as much as possible. If it does not work for others, then God bless them, but God bless me first!
You still have purpose and definition, you just lack someone telling you every move to make and what to think. :)
I'm pretty new at this and still trying to figure things out myself, but here's my two cents... The part that was hardest for me to accept was that it's okay to not have a purpose. If I want a purpose, I can choose one (or a dozen at the same time) but I have to remind myself that it's not absolute and I can change my purpose if I want to. I don't have to be locked in to whatever I choose.
If you really want to have a purpose right now, might I suggest one of self-discovery? See what your likes and dislikes are. Make sure they come from your authentic self and not the leftovers of the mind-altering indoctrination. See what you feel strongly about, and what you couldn't care less about. Take a few of the more reasonable personality tests, then take them again a month later and see how you've changed as a person after just trying out a few new things.
You don't have to go out right away and get knock-down-drunk (which you can do if you want), but try something small first if it's scary. Listen to a CD that was on the "forbidden" list, or watch a movie that was also on the list. Evaluate it from your new perspective, see if it still bothers you. If it does, that's okay. If it doesn't, that's okay. If you have absolutely no feelings either way about it, that's okay too! Evaluate that experience and take another step to try another new experience. Choose each new experience based on whether or not you liked the previous ones and you'll find yourself developing a little more direction each day.
If you really want to have a purpose right now, might I suggest one of self-discovery? See what your likes and dislikes are. Make sure they come from your authentic self and not the leftovers of the mind-altering indoctrination.
That has been true for me also
almost everthing I was taught I now believe differently usually almost the exact opposite.
You know, this is really good advice Steve.
It reminds me of what I did when I faced the same conundrum; I read a Kerouac book, then drove from Utah to this little beach near Santa Cruz CA. (I did a whole bunch of other things) Then with a stroke of luck met a bunch of other people trying to figure out similar stuff.
Steve's writing should be put somewhere special, where it is more accessible to others, on this site.