Very interesting topic. I live in Utah, in what I refer to as "the lion's den". I'm surrounded by Mormons. I was a hard core member for 32 years. My husband and I held many callings. I graduated from Seminary, Ricks College and BYU. Now that I've resigned, I really cringe when people ask me if I'm Mormon. And for those who do not live in Utah, people ask that question of me ALL THE TIME! I try to laugh it off or mention that I'm well versed in the Mormon culture.
I am ashamed of my Mormon heritage. I am ashamed that I was duped for so very long and allowed the Mormon church an amazing amount of control over my emotions and life altering decisions. I have a Facebook page and I will not post the fact that I graduated from Ricks or BYU. I would rather people assume I'm an uneducated schmuck, than a Mormon. When we travel outside of Utah or Idaho and people ask where we are from, the next question is almost always, "Are you Mormon"? If it is outside if the US the question becomes, "Were you a missionary here"?
I'll never escape my past. I'm trying to accept it and even look at the good that has come from it. Without the church I would not have met my husband and he would not have the ability to speak another language. Maybe one day I can say that I'm indifferent.
I've not yet had the opportunity except here and with my family.
I'm definitely not indifferent yet. I strongly resent the time and money I've wasted on the church, as well as resenting my wasted intellect.
I'm proud that I finally saw the truth, though embarrassed at how long it took. I will definitely say I'm proud to be an Atheist to the next religious nutters knocking on my door, and if they are LDS, I'll let them know how much I resent having been brainwashed as an infant.
I'm not ashamed to say I was a mormon, even though 50 years should make me extremely embarrassed. I just chalk it up to being brainwashed as an infant. I'm intelligent, but I do know I'm a slow learner, so I'm sure that's part of it. At my age, I'm not ashamed of much. We are all imperfect in our own ways.
For me personally, I enjoy every opportunity I can get to mention that I "once was" - perhaps its a sadistic streak - but I think there is still the misconception that I was exed for some misdemeanor or another, so I am only too happy to share the details of how I came to leave something that duped me for so long - much to the surprise of many.
Ever heard the saying "Ignorance is bliss"? - well that was what my memberships was like. Maybe that IS the idea of telling members not to delve too deeply after all.