Leaving the church...what song helped you out? What was on your mind when you heard it?

My song was Katy Perry's "Wide Awake"

The lyrics just struck my heart one morning.  The night before I had come to realize that the church had deceived me into faithfulness.  I got in my truck and drove to work with solemn thoughts.  I decided to switch the radio on and I heard a song that was just perfect to help me feel better and more positive.

Just imagine how this song touched my heart as you realize I was deeply depressed.  I hope it touches yours too.

The lyrics are:

"Wide Awake"
....I'm wide awake

Yeah, I was in the dark
I was falling hard
With an open heart
How did I read the stars so wrong?
And now it's clear to me
That everything you see
Ain't always what it seems
Yeah, I was dreaming for so long

[Pre-Chorus]
I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn't dive in
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
'Til I woke up on
On the concrete

[Chorus]
Falling from cloud 9
Crashing from the high
I'm letting go tonight
Yeah, I'm falling from cloud 9

I'm wide awake
Not losing any sleep
I picked up every piece
And landed on my feet
Need nothing to complete myself, no

I'm wide awake
Yeah, I am born again
Out of the lion's den
I don't have to pretend
And it's too late
The story's over now, the end

[Pre-Chorus]
I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn't dive in
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
'Til I woke up on
On the concrete

[Chorus]
Falling from cloud 9 (it was out of the blue)
I'm crashing from the high
I'm letting go tonight (yeah, I'm letting you go)
I'm falling from cloud 9

I'm wide awake
Thunder rumbling
Castles crumbling
I am trying to hold on
God knows that I tried
Seeing the bright side
But I'm not blind anymore...

I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake........
 
 
Thank you.  Now share yours!

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Here's mine, which has continued to stick with me since I first left and continues to be a theme song for my life. The song is "Affirmation" by Savage Garden:

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe that your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

The song that helped me realize the problems with the Christian, and subsequently Mormon god is "Dear God" by XTC. It made a lot of sense to me then and it still does.

Dear god hope you got the letter, and...
I pray you can make it better down here.
I don't mean a big reduction in the price of beer
But all the people that you made in your image, see
Them starving on their feet 'cause they don't get
Enough to eat from God, I can't believe in you

Dear God, sorry to disturb you, but... I feel that I should be heard
Loud and clear. We all need a big reduction in amount of tears
And all the people that you made in your image, see them fighting
In the street 'cause they can't make opinions meet about God,
I can't believe in you

Did you make disease, and the diamond blue? Did you make
Mankind after we made you? And the devil too!

, don't know if you noticed, but... your name is on
A lot of quotes in this book, and us crazy humans wrote it, you
Should take a look, and all the people that you made in your
Image still believing that junk is true. Well I know it ain't, and
So do you, dear God, I can't believe in I don't believe in

I won't believe in heaven and hell. No saints, no sinners, no
Devil as well. No pearly gates, no thorny crown. You're always
Letting us humans down. The wars you bring, the babes you
Drown. Those lost at sea and never found, and it's the same the
Whole world 'round. The hurt I see helps to compound that
Father, Son and Holy Ghost is just somebody's unholy hoax,
And if you're up there you'd perceive that my heart's here upon
My sleeve. If there's one thing I don't believe in

It's you....

I LOVE Katy Perry's Wide Awake. I immediately took to that song when it came out.

I have dozens of songs that are therapeutic for me but my all time favorite is Don Henley's "End of the Innocence".

Fantastic song, written by Bruce Hornsby, which makes it more fantastic. Amazing lyrics and phenomenal message.

Favorite line: "Happily ever after fails and we've been poisoned by these fairytales..."
The End of the Innocence
Songwriters: HENLEY, DON / HORNSBY, BRUCE
Remember when the days were long
And rolled beneath a deep blue sky
Didn't have a care in the world
With mommy and daddy standin' by
But "happily ever after" fails
And we've been poisoned by these fairy tales
The lawyers dwell on small details
Since daddy had to fly

But I know a place where we can go
That's still untouched by men
We'll sit and watch the clouds roll by
And the tall grass wave in the wind
You can lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair fall all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end
This is the end of the innocence
O' beautiful, for spacious skies
But now those skies are threatening
They're beating plowshares into swords
For this tired old man that we elected king
Armchair warriors often fail
And we've been poisoned by these fairy tales
The lawyers clean up all details
Since daddy had to lie

But I know a place where we can go
And wash away this sin
We'll sit and watch the clouds toll by
And the tall grass wave in the wind
Just lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair spill all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end
This is the end of the innocence

Who knows how long this will last
Now we've come so far, so fast
But, somewhere back there in the dust
That same small town in each of us
I need to remember this
So baby give me just one kiss
And let me take a long last look
Before we say goodbye

Just lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair fall all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end
This is the end of the innocence

This is a great topic.  I have always been half out of the church but when my wife came to me and decided she was out.  (I jumped up and down with happiness) I remember a song by OAR came out and was very fitting for the time.  The song was "Heaven" and the line I remember is "I Don't want to go to heaven if I cant get in". I remember thinking to myself.  That is so true. If they don't want me for who I am, then I don't want to be there.  

I can think of one more song that I remember made me think.  It was a line in Jay-Z's version of forever young "Life is for living, not living up tight".  I remember thinking how liberating it was to know that I was just living my life by my rules and it was not so uptight.  

That is my 2 cents.  Thanks for listening. 

Dave

Tory Amos
1 Crucify ourselves

Depeche mode

2 People are people.

3 Personal Jesus


Sorry don't have the lyrics.

One of my personal favorites is from Muse called Uprising!

http://grooveshark.com/s/Uprising+Album+Version/2GyYfG?src=5


The paranoia is in bloom, the PR
Transmissions will resume, they'll try to
Push drugs, keep us all dumb down and hope that
We will never see the truth around, so come on

Another promise, another scene, another
Package not to keep us trapped in greed with all the
Green belts wrapped around our minds and endless
Red tape to keep the truth confined, so come on

They will not force us
And they will stop degrading us
And they will not control us
We will be victorious, so come on

Interchanging mind control, come let the
Revolution take its toll, if you could
Flick a switch and open your third eye, you'd see that
We should never be afraid to die, so come on

Rise up and take the power back, it's time that
The fat cats had a heart attack, you know that
Their time is coming to an end, we have to
Unify and watch our flag ascend, so come on

They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious, so come on

Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey

They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious, so come on

Hey, hey, hey, hey

I have a couple of songs to share.

One of them is kind of - like Micah's - something that has helped me dictate my new belief system. That one is "Oxygen" by Willi Mason.

There are also two songs by a little-known artist by the name of Cavalier King. The Unprotected really spoke to me - years before I even left the church. The other is titled Renegade - This one is practically impossible to find. I usually listen to it on spotify. Here are the lyrics for Renegade:

So it came out one day that I don't pray to virgin mothers

and I have no faith in a supernatural martyr.

So now that you know, don't you wonder how I keep myself 

from going quite insane?

Don't fool around, this is not for children.

Don't fool around 'cause it's not a game. 

Oh, I wield this golden shield

and I sling these silver arrows

for I will never yield

to the fancy of the Pharaohs.

And as we lay our heads

and we gaze upon the stars,

you're thinking that this is so insane.

Don't fool around, this is not for children.

Don't fool around, this is not for children.

Don't fool around with a renegade....

like me.  

So I cannot heal the blind,

and I cannot walk on water.

But the world before my mind

is a stone before the sculptor.

So if you looks for signs

that the universe has clear intentions, well -

you will go insane.

Don't fool around, this is not for children.

Don't fool around, this is not for children.

Don't fool around with a renegade

like me...

Oh, like me.

This was the song that got me started thinking about my life in general.  My wife's song was katy perrys Wide awake.  I also like OAR's Heaven. 

Some Nights by FUN

Some nights, I stay up cashing in my bad luck
Some nights, I call it a draw
Some nights, I wish that my lips could build a castle
Some nights, I wish they'd just fall off

But I still wake up, I still see your ghost
Oh Lord, I'm still not sure what I stand for oh
What do I stand for? What do I stand for?
Most nights, I don't know anymore...
Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa oh oh
Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa oh oh

This is it, boys, this is war - what are we waiting for?
Why don't we break the rules already?
I was never one to believe the hype - save that for the black and white
I try twice as hard and I'm half as liked, but here they come again to jack my style

And that's alright; I found a martyr in my bed tonight
She stops my bones from wondering just who I am, who I am, who I am
Oh, who am I? mmm... mmm...

Well, some nights, I wish that this all would end
Cause I could use some friends for a change
And some nights, I'm scared you'll forget me again
Some nights, I always win, I always win...

But I still wake up, I still see your ghost
Oh Lord, I'm still not sure what I stand for, oh
What do I stand for? What do I stand for?
Most nights, I don't know... (come on)

So this is it? I sold my soul for this?
Washed my hands of that for this?
I miss my mom and dad for this?

(Come on)

No. When I see stars, when I see, when I see stars, that's all they are
When I hear songs, they sound like this one, so come on
Oh, come on. Oh, come on, OH COME ON!

Well, that is it guys, that is all - five minutes in and I'm bored again
Ten years of this, I'm not sure if anybody understands
This one is not for the folks at home; Sorry to leave, mom, I had to go
Who the fuck wants to die alone all dried up in the desert sun?

My heart is breaking for my sister and the con that she call "love"
When I look into my nephew's eyes...
Man, you wouldn't believe the most amazing things that can come from...
Some terrible lies...ahhh...

Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa, oh oh
Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa, oh oh

The other night, you wouldn't believe the dream I just had about you and me
I called you up, but we'd both agree
It's for the best you didn't listen
It's for the best we get our distance... oh...
It's for the best you didn't listen
It's for the best we get our distance... oh...

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