I'm new to this forum and I hope it is appropriate to ask questions here. I went to visit a casual friend who is a member of the church and also my visiting teacher.
I explained that I no longer consider myself Mormon and am planning on
having my name removed from the records.
She was not mean about it – surprised maybe – and said she was sure it
wouldn’t be a big deal. I am so
surprised by my reaction to saying it out loud.yes""> I actually felt sadness and uneasiness. I don’t understand why I felt these
things. I don’t believe in
organized religion at all. I think
religion is mostly superstition, group behavior modification, and social
support. I don’t really like
labels but I guess I would call myself a realist or a scientist – I’m not going
to believe amazing claims without proof.
I haven’t been to church in over a year.yes""> I follow my heart on what I believe it the right thing to do
and no longer follow the dictates of the church.yes""> I am the only member of the Church in my family so no one
cares if I leave except for one very close friend.yes""> However, I did join the church when I was 17 so I have been
a member over 30 years. For so
many years, being mormon was part of my identification. But I thought I’d moved on – I’m not
that person anymore so why is it so difficult to make that final step? As I have been reading the discussion
on this forum, it seems like many people are farther along in the process of
leaving and I thought maybe you could help me understand - If I’m not mormon in
my heart, why is it so difficult to stop being mormon on paper?