This is my first attempt at addressing anything here. Please be patient and understanding if it seems if this is the wrong place for me to be posting this.
I am very near the final phase of my resignation. As you read this I am sure some of you may understand the head game that I am dealing with. I am very content with my decision to quit and never return. For awhile now, I have been reading anything I can get my hands on and have spent countless hours studying and listening to all of the Ex-Mormon foundations conferences etc. About two weeks ago my mind was getting too overwhelmed and I took a break to ponder other things. I have quite the DVD collection (OCD I guess : ). Found a series on a show called A Haunting. I have always been leery to go anywhere near the evil side in life. If anyone has seen such shows, you know what I mean by feeling a level of fear after watching them. The premise of this particular show is based primarily on demonic stories that have been told over many years now and are reenactments telling these stories. Nearly every show deals with exorcisms’ and such.
What I am basically saying here is that it has been putting a level of fear into me wondering that if I ever need to drive out an evil spirit, what will I do? For me and my fifty years of life, I have always felt safe with the knowledge of the Priesthood power that I had to take care of these types of things throughout my life. I guess it is yet another phase of 'What If'. I mean, we were all brain washed for so long and it all seemed to fit so nicely into cute little box, and now the box exploded and I feel a level of peace that really makes me want to get out of bed and look forward to another day.
Please feel free to help me put my mind at ease if you don't mind.
Thanks for your help,
I found some clips on YouTube that may be helpful in easing your mind--
Here is an interesting science experiment called The God Helmet
And if you can stomach profanity, Penn & Teller's comedic "Bullshit" episode Exorcism. Watch all three parts.
Or Part 1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1v2p5mCGH3Q