Thanks Miranda for sharing your story and your poem with us/me. I think you express the anger, confusion and disdain we all feel from being a part of a cult.
I loved your comparisons and you capture my feelings of frustration that I feel for people who are so sure they are right about their beliefs, and yet so clearly shrouded in stupidity. I hope you don't give in to temptation and go back. I offer my friendship as a stranger, which I promise is far better than your very best friend in a cult. While your ex-jw friends cling to their Watchtowers and shun you, please remember that I and many many others celebrate your intellectual freedom. I have so much peace now from not being a part of Mormonism. I hope you will find that same inner peace some day in your escape from a similar situation.
Thanks for sharing, you aren't the first JW to post here and I think I remember someone talking about a book called "I'm Perfect You're Doomed". I hope I have that right but it was I think both a story of an exit and a humorous look at someone's departure from being a JW. I always intended to read it, but never did.
A lot of your story sounds familiar. I realized Mormonism (second m silent) was almost certainly false when I realized that my prayers had never been answered, the holy ghost had never helped me, and my "inspired" leaders had never helped me. I still had a very small lingering thought that just maybe satan was deceiving me.
But after reading The God Delusion by Richard Dawkins, and listening to his lectures on Evolution, I had no more worries. I knew all religions were false.
Welcome and thanks for sharing your story! It's amazing how similar and yet how untrue both our past religions are.
I´m so glad I came across your post today. A friend of mine is in the process of leaving the JW too. It is a living nightmare and I feel very much affected by it all. There are indeed so many similarities to Mormonism. I am so sorry you are facing the horrible side-effects that go along with an exit. It sounds like you reflect deeply upon all of this. I think people with such backgrounds can get out of this okay,...wounded but with the chance of a good life. Each day step by step. The daily fight is the prize of freedom...sadly. I hope the posts in this community help you in being reminded daily that you are enough the way you are. Can´t wait to share this post of yours with my friend. Thanks and welcome!
That is a beautiful poem!! Those are many of the same feelings I've felt when leaving the LDS church. It is sad when loved ones do not see through all this. Although, I was once a true believer. Being on the outside can be extremely difficult but the freedom of the truth is what is important. Have you heard of Steve Hassan? He left a cult (the moonies) and wrote some books about exiting and what ex cult members have to go through in reestablishing their identity, life, etc.